~BluR-bLuR CyNtHiA's little world~

2011-01-15T10:30:00.000-08:00

原来最不想要伤害我的人往往却是伤害我最深的人！一直以来我都在逞强，伪装自己，从来不会把自己不开心的一面表现出来，可是这种生活却让我好累。。总以为自己能够很坚强的去面对可是却自欺欺人，我根本就办不到！如果放手是我唯一解脱的方法，那我会选择放手，至少我还会有呼吸的空间。。时间会是我最好的良药，加油！

醋女王的日记

2010-09-30T00:42:00.000-07:00

容易吃醋及爱吃醋当然是醋女王的习惯。原本这习惯已经改掉了，只是没想最近又回来啦。。。唉，真的好烦哦！最近醋女王做事情样样都不顺利，已经很不开心了，没想到又会多一样烦恼。醋女王承认她最近老在吃醋。。哈哈。。醋女王就是没办法控制自己不去吃醋。。醋女王唯一的解决方法就是保持沉默，有苦自己吞。没办法，她的她应该知道她的想法可是她却不避忌，她也无能为力。她绝对没有责怪她意思，只是她不高兴罢了。唉。。。她的他也不懂她的状况，真悲哀。还是继续与她像平常一样相处，搞得她每天都活在忐忑不安的日子。这也令她想起以前相似的日子。。不知道她的他们几时才会发现她的状况呢？她其实也不懂，只能继续保持沉默。。。

wonder..

2010-08-22T22:55:00.000-07:00

i wonder why when i need help u r not the first one who i wish to seek help from..i wonder why i dare not to seek help from u..i choose to seek help from anyone around me but not u..although i wish u r the one who help me when i'm down or when i meet any difficulty..so complicated..however,one thing i can confirm is i wish to c u when i'm moody but it never comes true.haha..

sorry n thank you

2010-08-22T22:40:00.000-07:00

Firstly,i would like to say sorry to all my classmates..sorry for making u guys worry about me..so sorry..
Secondly,i would like to say sorry to someone..sorry that i scolded u..sorry for being so rude to u..so sorry..
Thirdly,i would like to thank all of u..thank you for lending me a hand when i need help..thank you so much!!! i really appreciate that..
friends r very important in our life..i m so glad to have u all as my friends..love u all..hehe..

心里的痛谁来了解？？？

2010-07-30T14:15:00.000-07:00

最痛的时刻又回来找我啦。。。可是这次可以算是比之前进步了，至少时间缩短了许多。可是我不知道自己可以撑到什么时候。表面装作坚定，可是内心却是脆弱的。真的在乎吗？？如果真的在乎心里的伤不会再次裂开，还变成更深了。思想要改变，讲的容易，却没办法做到，还是一样幼稚。心里的痛你永远不会懂。。对别人来说那其实很小事，可是我却觉得它已足以让我再次回到最痛的时刻。

为什么？？

2010-07-07T00:25:00.000-07:00

为什么我就是没办法当自己心情的主人？？为什么我的情绪总是要被你牵着走？为什么我就是那么爱吃醋？？为什么我明明就是最了解事情的状况却还是要胡思乱想？为什么我应该要做的事情反而我却没有做？？为什我就是不能当做一切都没发生过？？为什么我就是这么没有安全感？？唉。。好烦。。。

锦衣卫 (14-blades)

2010-02-18T23:59:00.000-08:00

juz now i went to gurney plaza wif shirley,elein n michelle for gathering..shirley came back from kampar for chinese new year celebration so we hang out together at gurney plaza.we ate our dinner at manilla palace.then we watched 14-blades..wow..it's really a nice movie!!wuchun is so handsome n so cool..haha..(this is a fact,haha)after finished our movie,we went to toilet as usual.haha..we took a lots of photo inside the toilet.haha..our ppl sure say this feel gals crazy d,toilet also can take picture.haha..after leaving gurney,we went to baskin robbin to buy ice-cream.haha..it's so tasty..hehe..actually we wanna go to haagen-dazz but it is too expensive n not worth then we only go to baskin robbin.haha..then we ate our ice-cream inside shirley's car..later on we go back to our home sweet home d..
[14-blades really is a nice movie,whoever likes wuchun or other actors inside the movie muz go to support this moviw oh..thx a lot!!!^^]

2009-11-29T23:30:00.002-08:00

DAD & MOM,i MISS U!!! love u!!!

唉。。

2009-11-18T21:39:00.000-08:00

最近的我是怎么了？？？做什么东西都酱没有信心，blur-blur酱，一直被爹地骂。唉。。。我到底可不可以拿点信心，勇气出来啊！我好气自己哦！整天都在退缩，怕东怕西的。唉。。。我应该做点东西来改变自己。加油！！

喜？哀？

2009-11-17T02:27:00.000-08:00

今天的心情好复杂哦。。又喜又哀。。真不懂到底该高兴还是伤心呢。。我很满足现在拥有的一切，也很知足。我不希望我的快乐会建立在他的痛苦上。可是我不懂我的快乐到底可以维持多久。因为藏在我心中好几个月的秘密，今天公然被朋友揭穿了。当时的我不知所措，我不知道我该怎么做，我拼命否认可是我的朋友却还是一口咬定了。我也只能顺其自然，由他去了。。今天的我因为实在太过失败了。。犯了好多错误，希望这些错误不会影响我们之间的友谊。我希望这份友谊可以像往常一样好，什么都没发生。在此，我也想对你说对不起。。刚才令你感到尴尬了。。不好意思!

人生

2009-10-24T00:00:00.000-07:00

人生是什么？我并不清楚。。我只知道人的一生中终会面临千百种的挫折与失败。人总该懂得学习独立，坚强，勇敢的去面对及解决所面对的一切挫折与失败；而不是退缩与逃避。我自认自己不是那一种懂得坚强及勇敢面对一切失败的人。可是我知道我总该学习面对一切。。每次一遇到问题我就会缩，逃避，鼓不起勇气去面对的问题。总觉得自己并没有可用之处！人的一生中应该也有许多美好的事情吧？只是美好的东西应该不会长久。人在每一个不同的阶段所需的东西及觉得重要的事情会随着我们的年龄改变。我知道人生不能重来，所以我们去应该去珍惜现在所拥有的一切。充实的人生是我所渴望拥有的，只不过这个目标好像离我有一点远。。。充实的人生应该会蛮累吧！不过我还是想拥有酱的人生。现在对我最重要的事情是我的学业，所以我应该全力以赴把握这谨剩一年的时间来冲刺，为自己努力，什么都不可以想了。加油！！

失败了。。

2009-10-08T20:00:00.000-07:00

今天轮到我presentation。早上我一到学校我的队友就问我准备好了吗？我说应该好了吧。其实演讲是我的致命伤。我最讨厌在这么多人面前演讲了！因为我没有勇气也觉得很有压力。休息节过后就是我的"死期"了。我很想逃避可是我卻沒有辦法逃避。于是我只好硬着头皮去完成这份艰难的任务。我很感谢我的队友及全班同学给于我百分百的支持与鼓励。我感到很窝心。谢谢你们！谢谢令杰帮我抄我的笔记在白板上。谢谢国良给我鼓励及及叫我放松心情。真的很谢谢你们！你们真的是我的好同学。一开始，你们就给我很大的掌声。过后我的演讲就开始了。讲到一半我却stuck着了。。老师就叫我明天在present多一次。其实老师还说了一些话。过后我就回到自己的座位上了。。一坐下来我的眼泪就洒了下来。。因为我失败了。。我不想让可爱的同学们发现不过到最后还是被发现了。连老师也发现了。。槟吉是第一个发现的。其实我想告诉他：谢谢你！谢谢你挮纸巾给我，谢谢你教导我如何改进我的presentation。谢谢你给于我很大的鼓励与支持！其实你是一个很棒的speaker。老师也跟我说了一些话。我知道其实老师都为我们好也很疼我们。老师，我不会生气你。我要谢谢你的苦心栽培。明天我会做得更好！加油！

~心情复杂的一天，好多的第一次~

2009-10-03T00:30:00.000-07:00

今天是很特别的一天因为今天是一年一度的中秋节啦。。今天我一大早就起床了，而且是五点多噢。。因为今天跟朋友约好要到ayer itam dam去抓昆虫·。今早清泉五点半就morning call我了因为他怕我睡不醒。其实我五点半醒了过后又继续睡到六点十分才醒起来冲凉换衣服。哈哈。。我还来得及六点半出门耶。哈哈。。因为我们约好七点meet在旧的sunshine farlim。清泉六点半载我过后就去载佩玉和meet伟胜。伟胜坐摩多载yuan jin。我们大概七点出头就到达集合的地点了。。我们到达集合地点后，智佳也到了。不久我就肚子饿了。(*^__^*) 嘻嘻……刚好那边有mamak店，于是我便提议边吃早餐边等momo。。我，佩玉，伟胜，智佳和家庚就一起坐下来吃早餐。清泉和yuan jin没有吃因为他们不饿。哇。。我们吃到一半momo和sheng yuan还没到耶。。momo还真慢，竟然迟到半个小时。于是智佳便msg sheng yuan,而我就msg momo。sheng yuan回复说他生病所以就不能来了。还好我们有msg他不然我们就白白等他了。不久momo就到了。。我和佩玉吃饱后，我们也就出发到ayer itam dam去meet纬雯和鼎杰了。途中，我和佩玉一直喊饱因为我们吃了两片的roti canai。真的好多哦！佩玉就说男生吃两片，我们女生也吃两片。怪不得我们会酱饱。。真的是不自量力哦！哈哈。。[佩玉，我是在说我自己哦！】大概十五分钟后，我们就到达ayer itam dam了。。这是我第一次去哦。。没想到ayer itam dam这样美丽。(*^__^*) 嘻嘻……我根本不像去抓昆虫反而好像去旅游。哈哈！我们还看到一只很大只四脚蛇在dam里面游泳。咦。。它好脏哦！哈哈。。过后我们就继续往前走去寻找我们要找的东西了。。。途中我们还遇到一名洋人。他好奇我们在干什么还跟我们聊了一阵子。他还祝我们good luck..大概九点半我们就开始下山了因为十点我们还得回学校出席science & maths的活动。哇。。。今天的活动好精彩哦！那就是解剖老鼠啦。。。哈哈！我好兴奋哦！可惜白老鼠卖完了，我们得解剖可爱的hamster。我，cynlin,wen,nee,woon & yoke一组。其实我们跟那只我们要解剖的hamster感情还蛮好的因为解剖前我们还跟它玩了一下子。我还是第一次跟hamster玩耶。。。过后就开始解剖了。。【如果想知道解剖的过程就到science & maths的facebook去看吧。谢谢支持！】解剖完毕我们还跟Pn. Hoe拍大合照。还有一个惊喜就是之前chemical garden比赛，我没想到我会得第二名耶。。这是我第一次个人得奖耶！好开心哦！活动过后，我，wen,cynlin,nee & yoke就约好一起到新的sunshine farlim去吃午餐。这也是我第一次去新的sunshine farlim哦！过后我，wen,cynlin & yoke才一起去补习。今天补习由Mr. Sim教因为他的太太今天没空。刚开始，我有一点开始爱睡了。不过后来却很精神的专心补习了。。。由于今天是中秋节，公公家的公寓举行了一个派对。其实每一年都有举行，不过每一年都没有出席因为都没空。刚好今年有空所以就跟父母一起到公公家去出席派对。这也是我第一次出席这个派对。晚上七点半，我们便出发到公公家去。那边好热闹哦！好多人哦。。可是今天天不作美，小朋友都没得提灯笼！那边也有蛮多食物，例如：bbq,laksa,curry chicken,fried rice,fried bee hoon,fried mee,vege...他突然间说如果我约他他会来找我。于是我便说好就约他来我公公家。没想到他竟然说真的，大概九点半他真的出现了。。吓了我一跳。没想到今年的中秋节是跟他一起过。。我在此祝大家“中秋节快乐”！

exam

2009-08-18T12:25:00.000-07:00

omg...my exam will start 2mr..
so scare n nervous..
got many things nid 2 study n memorise..
i'm so useless,not determined enough.
haihz...study till half go to sleep d..
aiyo..i'm really a pig.
wanna exam d still can sleep..
the only way for me to remain energetic is coffee or nescafe.
i keep on drinking nescafe so that i wont feel sleepy.
hope that i wont feel sleepy anymore coz i hav to k books till midnight.
if not i sure cant study finish..
still got a lot haven't study finish lo..
i cannot get too bad results,i dun want to disappoint my teacher n my parents.
anyway,i muz work harder..
actually i got a very bad habit which is always wait till last moment only can study.
haiyo..like this sure cant get good results wan.
who ask me so lazy leh..
all is my fault.
no more next time d..
i better continue 2 study if not 2mr sure die d..
haha..
tata..

stress!!!

2009-07-05T22:35:00.000-07:00

haihz..
my life is so stressful..
my EQ is so bad..
i keep on influenced by my mood recently.
keep on thinking of such nonsence things which r totally not important to me!
stress always follow me without getting a pas from me.it came when it likes..wow..i couldn't overcome it.stress!!!
loads of homework n difficulties surrounding me..
i couldn't speak in front of my MUET teacher n all of my frenz..
i feel that my knowledge is limited.
i growed for so many years d but i seems to be no knowledge.
i m so useless..
everybody is working very hard on their study but,wat about me?
wat hav i done since sch reopened till now??
arghh..hate myself so much!!!
since i have chosen f6,i hav to be determined enough to go through these 2 years..
even though it is very tough n i'll be facing many difficulties in my f6 life.
anyway,i feel much better rite now..
actually this is not the rite time for me 2 continue blaming..i suppose to be in front of the desk to do my homework.
ok la,gtg..
c u.

i'm back

2009-07-05T21:52:00.000-07:00

long time din update my blog d..
haha..it is bcoz i lazy 2 update.
anyway,i'll try to update when i'm not lazy that time.

fahrenheit is coming!!!

2009-05-25T16:48:00.000-07:00

yeah..fahrenheit is coming to malaysia soon.fahrenheit will be coming to penang,autocity at 29/5/2009 (friday night) at 9p.m. hope evryone can support them.thx.^^ i'm so looking forward to this event.haha..coz i can c my lovely chun chun soon.haha..n aaron,jiro,calvin too!

迷茫的一天

2009-05-25T15:28:00.000-07:00

我今天到底是怎么了？？？我的能力，自信都在哪啊？？？为什么我什么都做不好啊？觉得自己好没用哦！！！好像是一无是处酱！驾车技术又烂透顶了！我的生物小考成绩又不理想。咳。。。好伤心哦！我真的不知道我今天到底是怎么了。。上课又心不在焉！我知道我不像其他人一样那样聪明，所以我必须花比别人多几倍的努力及时间才能追上他们的脚步，时间不会为了我而停留。我很想成为父母心中的乖女儿，品学兼优，懂事，自立，不让他们操心。我很想当一个父母会以我为荣的棒女儿，可是我却里这个目标好远，好远。。。因为我样样都做不好。我好想改变现在的我，因为我没办法接受酱的自己。希望我可以有信心，勇敢去面对一切挫折，不会轻易被打败。无论怎样从明天起我一定要活出自我，呈现出全新的自己！

17/3/2009，最难忘的一天

2009-03-18T13:27:00.000-07:00

今晚是我人生中最难忘的一天了。。我的好姐妹elein提前帮我庆祝我的生日，她为了我举办一个是生日会。当晚childish gang&dangerous gang的好朋友们：wen,shirley,allan,mark,siang,quan,hong,burger,linkeat,ching chueen,wei li都有出席啦。。当然还有我和我的好姐妹(elein)。本来是定在晚上七点半开始，不过却在晚上九点半才开始因为有一些些事情耽搁了。。第一人祝我生日快乐的人竟然是杰耶。。哈哈，好不可思议哦。。我竟然还回答他说今天不是我生日啊。。结果被他打了一下。哈哈。。不过还是要谢谢他咯。。不久我们就开始开动elein所为我们准备丰富的食物。我从下午到晚上都被burger shoot..我怎样都讲不过他。哈哈。。他真厉害！！我想对他说其实他很可爱耶！！！哈哈。。接着我们就开sparkling juice来喝然后拍照。吃饱后，惊喜就来了。。噹！噹！噹！噹。。。！wen先帮我把我的眼睛闭上然后进屋里。。谁知当门一开burger却说了一些很好笑的话，哈哈！！他们还唱起了结婚进行曲。。。哈哈！！当我把眼睛睁开时，我感动的快哭了因为我好久没跟这么多好朋友一起庆祝了。。他们还唱了四种不同版本的生日歌。当时我的眼前也出现了一个好可爱又好漂亮的蛋糕，电视机前又播着我的好姐妹（elein)为我而剪接的影片。接着就许愿吹蜡烛了。。当时也很好笑！哈哈。。因为某某原因。。送礼物的过程却是又惊，又喜。。怎么说呢？我竟然被他们做弄。哈哈。。只有当时在场的朋友才知道而已！！哈哈。。

～其实我想对我的好姐妹（elein)说对不起及谢谢你！谢谢你为我举办这么棒的生日派对，我永远不会忘记这一天的。。谢谢你为我做的一切及礼物！非常谢谢你!

～我也要谢谢当时所出席的好朋友们，谢谢你们的参与及礼物!

我爱死你们了。。muakzz。。friendship forever!!=)

不一样的心情

2009-02-25T00:30:00.000-08:00

哇。。。刚才染回黑发了。。可是那个染料竟然不够我染耶。。真够力！哈哈。。不知道结果会是如何，因为我妈咪帮我染的。还蛮期待的。所以时间一到，我就去冲凉了。冲啊。。。冲啊。。。放了润发剂又再继续冲。最后冲完了就去照镜子。。。哇！！！吓了我一跳。。我的头发太黑了，好像假的一样。不能接受耶。。。我啊。。真的是“屁股痒”，吃饱没事做，贪玩，才会有现在的下场！我真的是后悔莫及了。现在终于知道染头发的坏处了。还是自然最好。。不过算了吧，得慢慢适应回。。现在还蛮想念我的colour hair耶。。其实我还有好多东西要写，只不过我爱睡了所以明天才继续吧！晚安咯。。sweet dreams..=)
[to be continued...]

2009-02-20T10:30:00.000-08:00

哈哈。。。终于有得用华语写了。最近不懂为什么感觉好闷，总觉得没有心情工作的。。。变得好懒惰哦。。。哈哈！！好想念我的朋友。。也很期待我跟我的childish gang的姐妹们的下一个约会。嘻嘻。。。那天应该会很开心吧！=）时间过得好快哦，二月份只剩下最后一个星期了，接下来紧张的心情应该会一直围绕着我吧。。。希望到时的我是笑着的而不是愁眉苦脸的。等下又得去做工了，没有得上网了。咳。。。好了，今晚才继续吧！拜拜。。。^^

time 2 grow up

2009-02-18T10:25:00.000-08:00

something has inspired me to write this blog today...
i think is time for me to grow up now.
i cant be a little gal anymore..
i muz know how to think,plan my life well,appreciate wat i hav now.
i know i'm already very fortune to be one of the member of my family members.
i wont let my parents down again,i muz make them proud of me.
i dunno why u r always a perfect person in my heart.
u r always a supeeeeeer man no matter any problem has occured in ur life.
u can faced it wif full of confidence n settle it perfectly.
u r so great!!!
ur parents should be very proud of u.
i should giv a big applause to u.
thank you very much..
thanks 4 being one of my great frenz in my life.

miz my frenz

2009-01-31T00:10:00.000-08:00

wow..so faz february d..
time past like thunder..
i miz all of my frenz so much.
din see u all for long time d...
haihz...
wanna hav gathering but dunno when only can gather.
everyday work work work nia..
so tired n boring..
i miz the time when i spent my time wif all of my frenz.
take care everyone.
thanks my dear elein..
thanks 4 giving me unforgettable n super happy nite..
thank you so much..
it's really fun n enjoy when spending all my time wif u guys.
hope we can hav gathering again.
childish gangz long time din hav gathering d..
dunno when only can meet u gals.
i miz michelle,elein,theng,qi n waywoon too.
gals,we muz hav a gathering too..
try to fix it ba..
i'm looking forward to meet u gals too.

tagged by elein

2008-12-26T01:05:00.000-08:00

Instructions:Remove 1 question from below and add in a personal question, make it a total of 19 questions. Then tag 8 people in your list, list them out at the end of this post.Notify them in their chat box that he/she has been tagged.
1.) What is it that bothers you the most?
> i still luv him???

2.) What is your most favorite thing to do?
> sleeping..haha..coz i m a pig.

3.) What kind of news do you read?
> Entertainment.

4.) What is your ultimate wish?
> Score flying colours in my spm examination.

5.) Is there someone in your heart right now?
> i think yes ba...

6.) Do you believe you can survive without money?
> no,it is impossible.

7.) Are you afraid of pain ?
> of coz..

8.) Are you in a relationship now?
> nope...i m still single.

9.) If there's someone that you love, would you confess to him/her?
> no,i wont.

10.) List out 3 good points of the person who tagged you.
> helpful,kind n nice..

11.) What are you doing now ?
> Post`ing it and Tag`ing

12.) What is the thing that will make you think he/she is bad?
> Based on the incident,situation and others opinion.

13.) If you had to eat one thing for the rest of your life, what would it be?
> japanese food..haha..

14.) If you had a choice to be rich or happy, which one would you pick?
> happy..coz i seldom really be happy in my life.

15.) If you have a chance, which part of your character you would like to change?
>blur-blur..coz i'm always blur-blur.

16.) Which person you love?
> depends on feelings..

17.) What is the one thing you love about yourself?
> NOTHING..i dun love myself.

18.) If you can bring only one thing along with you to another world, what would it be?
> ofcoz is my lovely idol,hebe..

19.) What are you thinking now?
> why i'm feeling uncomfortable rite now..my heart so pain n i'm so annoy.

my dear fren..

2008-12-13T17:28:00.000-08:00

how r u???
fine???
long time no c..
i still remember the laz time i saw u was 9/12/2008 at sch.
that time we didnt talked to each other n even say hi to each other.
haha..i still remember when i saw u,i cant recognize u.
u noe why???coz i was dreaming that time.haha..
the words that appeared in my mind in that second were:"wow..who is this guy?he looks very familiar.."haha..after that i screamed n looked at my wife.haha..she knew the reason.
anyway,i dare not to face u till now...
i dunno why..
i juz wish we can be best frenz 4ever..
i hope we can.
haha..
tell u something,i dreamed of u many times le..
but no good ending everytime.
haha..
good luck ya..
hope u'll recover soon.
dun sing tenor 4 temporary coz i scare u'll spoil ur throat.
hehe..paiseh..
bye bye..
see u in the future.

my feelings...

2008-12-13T15:14:00.000-08:00

wow..finally my net can use le..miz all of my frenz so much.
haha..how r u guys?hope u guys r fine.
haizz...my dad keep on talking about my future recently.
i dunno wat's my future too..
i luv the moment at sch,i dun1 to grow up la..
i noe everybody will go through this in our life but can i choose not to????
i think cant ba..
i should face this realistic n not to avoid it.
i m so stubborn.haha..
[to be continued...]

pig

2008-11-06T10:30:00.000-08:00

wow..long time din on9 d..
hehe..
i really is a pig,everyday wake up at 10 something.
actually i can wake up earlier but i continue to sleep.
haha..
i'm really a pig.
i wanna say sorry to a frenz coz i fly u aeroplane.
so sorry ya..
to another frenz:
i was so touch when i received ur msg.
coz u care n worry about me.
thank you so much.haha..
u seems like a daddy giving advice to a daughter.haha..
paiseh,say u until so old.haha..
anyway,i wanna thanks u 4 giving me such caring msg.^^

SPM

2008-10-30T08:01:00.000-07:00

spm gonna reach le..
going to die..
haiz..
muz study hard.
GO GO GO!!!
gambatte!!!

haizz..

2008-10-29T17:51:00.000-07:00

how do i live without u?
i miz u so much..
haizz..
totally no mood to study.
wat can i do???

why???

2008-10-27T23:45:00.000-07:00

mom,why u wan to treat me like this??
u noe i'll miz all my frenz so much.
why??
u confiscate my phone n camera for 2 days d.
when r u going to return me my hp n camera???
i need it.
i hav grown up,i noe wat m i suppose to do.
u force me like this,i will not concentrate on my study.
sorry that i came home late.
please return me as soon as possible!!!
thank you.

graduate

2008-10-23T17:03:00.000-07:00

haizz..
we're going to graduate d..
juz left one more day.
so sad..
will be leaving sch soon...
i miz all my frenz,my teachers n my sch.

miz+luv+4get = ???

2008-10-23T00:55:00.000-07:00

i miz u but i dare not to tell u.
i luv u,i dare not to tell u too..
i wanna 4get u but i couldn't make it.
it is too difficult for me to make it.
i tried not to talk to u but i juz can make it 4 a while.
after that i still talk to u too..
haizz..
wat can i do??
i think the best way is to keep this secret 4ever n don't let u noe about it although it is very tough to keep this secret in my heart.
m i stupid??
haha..
i'm really stupid.
a stupid says stupid things.
haha..
i'm tired d..
gud nitez..

luv???

2008-10-22T18:57:00.000-07:00

i luv u???
do i??
i dunno..
i miz u???
i dunno too..
haha..
it's complicated.

inspirations

2008-10-20T20:12:00.000-07:00

where's my inspiration??
suddenly all gone..
why will bcum like this??
haizz...quick cum back to me.
dun leave me alone..
please,my inspirations..
i miz u so much..
hurry cum back to my side.

moody day..

2008-10-20T14:37:00.000-07:00

why i m so down today??
wat's wrong wif me???
i'm so useless..
haizz..sorry ya..i gave u the wrong mic.
so sorry..
i'm sure u can do the best during our graduation dinner.
gambatte!!!^^
many ppl already realized the secret in my heart le..
haizz..maybe it really appeared through my action n my expressions.
i hope u wont realize,if not i scare we'll hav a long distance after it.

sorry...

2008-10-19T19:40:00.000-07:00

i'm so sorry..i dun want to make u angry or unhappy.sorry..i wont tell him abt ur things anymore.i'll also try my best not to talk to him amymore.i promise no more next time.i'll remember my words.

happy day..

2008-10-17T14:51:00.000-07:00

haha..finally i saw u today.so happy..haha...^^coz 9 days din see u le..actually i got a bit unhappy too..coz it's secret.haha..allan fall sick le,sorethroat.hope he'll recover soon.take care ya..^^

crazy..

2008-10-16T15:52:00.000-07:00

so tired..haizz..later hav to take a nap d..wat's wrong wif me today??why i seems like very annoyed??i also dunno wat's wrong wif me..haizz..anyway,allan,thank you.thank you 4 ur advice.

tired..

2008-10-16T01:30:00.000-07:00

wow..still got 5 hours i have to wake up,get bath,be ready to go sch d..actually i'm very tired but i dunno why i still got energy to write this article.i think i'm crazy d.hahaha..i'm such a careless gal.i hurt myself today when i was in pizza hut of tesco.so PAINFUL!!!luckily,i juz hurt one of my finger.quite serious de..whole finger became red n "fat".haizz..hope i'll recover soon.dunno 2mr whether i can wake up or not..hope i can coz i wanna go to sch.i still left 5 days to stay at class to study 2gether wif my classmates only so i'll cherish every moment wif them.^^allan,wish u all the best n good luck in ur driving test.gambatte!!!^^ hope to hear good news from u.ok la,i better go to bed d,if not i cant wake up 2mr.haha..good nite.^^

dear michelle (laopo)..

2008-10-16T01:00:00.000-07:00

dear laopo,happy birthday...^^hope u'll happy 4ever.muakzz..love u.hehe..

wat can i do???

2008-10-15T16:00:00.000-07:00

wat can i do only can make u happy???can u tell me?i'm willing to do so..how only can make u feel that we really care about u?sorry...i juz wan to noe.i dun wan to hav any "yi han".thx.

to u..

2008-10-15T06:35:00.000-07:00

u muz take care of urself,dun overworked urself ya..if not i'll worry de..haha..anyway,u better go to bed now.good nite...^^will inform u about the new information tonite.hehe..

to my dear,elein.

2008-10-15T06:30:00.001-07:00

dear,happy birthday..

我的毕业刊

2008-10-14T13:30:00.000-07:00

我们学校的毕业刊已经出炉了.哈哈...我好开心噢...

我一定会好好收藏及珍惜它的.i luv chung hwa.haha..

my lovely S.H.E..

2008-10-14T13:05:00.000-07:00

S.H.E released their album d...i m so happy.my dad bought for me after they released for 1 day.i lov安静了and 沿海公路的出口the most.other songs also very nice.i'll always support S.H.E..hehe..love them so much.muakzZ..

a new day..

2008-10-14T12:00:00.000-07:00

haha..i m absent for sch today bcoz i'm so tired,i cant wake up.haha..i sleep until 11a.m. so now i'm full of energy.hehe...actually i miz my frenz n sch so much.haha..dunno wat's my cute classmates do at class leh??
dunno my dear tt n elein got study or not..coz they always busy wif their souvenir for graduation dinner.haha..muz take care ya..n study hard too..we muz do our best in spm.gambatte,all my frenz.^^i wish my dear laopo,theng,elein n qi will score in their coming account's paper.promise me muz get good results oh..haha..good luck!!!^^

so sweet..

2008-10-13T22:00:00.000-07:00

6/10/2008
today is our graduation dinner audition.j ask elein n me to go to ur class to call u.that time when we were at the staircase,u asked me call u go up for wat but i said i dunno.then u said u guess they wanna ask u to perform during graduation dinner.that time u refused to go up wif me but i keep on beg u.finally,u go up wif me.when we go up,they really asked u to perform.at 1st u refused to do so but finally u still perfomed.u sang very good but u were very nervous.after u performed,u told me that u were very scared that time,ur hand still very cold.no wonder u dare not to face the audience.then elein n i keep on beg u to perform during graduation dinner,u said u think 1st.i still request u to participate in two activities.one is solo,one is group.we passed ur name to the programmer after that.in the afternoon,there was a graduation dinner meeting for all the committee..my dear says u treat me so good.haha..i'm so happy..i think u dunno n u wont ever noe i went to see u after our meeting ended.hehe..that's a secret.haha..

7/10/2008
today quite funny n happy de..many of our committee members worked at art room bcoz of the preparation of graduation dinner.both of us quite close that time.u still sat beside me to see the photo.my another dear also said we r so close.haha..happy..^^u r so cute..u cut the cellophane tape n paste on all my ten fingers even whole of my palm.haha..coz other decorations members needed to use it.i cant imagine that u got such a cute action.u still invite me to red box but i couldn't make it.so u went wif xxx.i said i wanna to listen to ur singing then i asked u to record 4 me.at 1st u said dun wan but after that u said u will think of it.haha..thank you so much!!!^^

my memories in school...

2008-10-13T21:45:00.000-07:00

haha...this photo so cute n funny..miz my class so much!!!

zi xian,pn.ivy n me..^^ she's a good,friendly n nice teacher.

we took it during teacher's day...friendship 4ever.4s3,gambatte!!!

haha..the 3 boys at the back look funny,rite??we're from 5s3,2008.

all of my girl's clasmates..from 4s3.friendship 4ever...

chia yi,new teacher n me..my classmate said she is my sister coz we looked almost the same.haha..

my class photo..4s3 (2007).

my dear ms. oon n my classmate...miz her so much!!!

u n me..

2008-10-13T21:30:00.000-07:00

actually i dunno whether i 100 percent forget u d or not..many ppl feel that i dun but i personally dunno the actual ans too. sometimes i feel that i juz treat u as my best fren but i dunno why i'll treat u so good,i dun wan u to get hurt.this causes many ppl said that i din forget u.it already past for 7 months.. i knew that was the happiest moment in my form 5 life even though that was only about 2 weeks relationship.i really cherish that moment..we'll going to seperate soon,dunno when only can sit down n hav high tea 2gether.haha..u r a very great n creative person.hope u'll succeed in ur future.i'm looking forward for ur success.gambatte...good luck!^^
this will be the 2nd sweet memory in my life.miz u..

my 1st relationship..

2008-10-13T21:15:00.000-07:00

we were a couple laz time but that's already 2 years ago.. actually that's a sweet memory 4 me.however,that's a bad memory 4 me too.haha..i still remember that i luv u so much that time.but after that incident,i dun hav that real feelings anymore.sorry..
if that time u din hurt me,we wont break..i think we'll "walk" together through this long journey till now.unfotunately,that's hurt made me loss of direction.i cant find the 1st feeling back so i keep on reject u.coz i dun wan to hurt u anymore.if i continue be together wif u,i'll keep on hurt u.anyway,hope u'll be happy always..i hope u'll find a girl that luvs u a lot.but remember,dun repeat the same mistake again,dun let her down.lastly,hope we'll be best frenz 4ever...i'll keep this as my memory.

sad..

2008-10-13T20:50:00.000-07:00

going to graduate soon ..
juz left about 2 weeks..cant see u guys anymore.sure will miz u guys so much..dunno i can used to the environment that without u guys.hope we'll keep contact.^^love u guys..haha..
take care my dear chia yi,allan n mogan.^^

miz u so much..

2008-10-13T20:45:00.000-07:00

how r u now?
almost one week din see u d..
dunno whether u recovery from ur injury d or not...
dunno when only can see u d..haizz..
miz u so much until i cant describe how much is it...